Melanie Sobocinski FITNESS

Melanie Sobocinski FITNESS

Saturday, September 27, 2014

My Secret!

I'm sure there are some people that are intimidated by me and what I do for a living. I'm sure there are people who feel they can't relate to me. I know there have been people who are scared to work with me or even take my classes. WELL, I'm going to let you all in on a little secret that many people, not even my family, even know about me.
     When I was in High School, I didn't feel very comfortable around my friends. I always thought they looked better than me at dances in their dresses and whenever we went out. I always had some sort of issue with my body. I can't say I was really ever overweight, but believe it or not, there WAS a time when I thought I had to lose weight so I drank SLIM FAST. I hid it in my bedroom closet so no one would know. I'm not sure why I felt the need to drink it.
      At 18 years old I had my daughter and that's where my thyroid issues came in. I was overactive at first and after going through treatments it has since gone underactive. I am on daily meds to control it. About 2 years after my daughter was born, I began putting on weight and not feeling good about myself. I have no pictures of this because I pretty much hid from them. I do remember 1 picture though, I looked at it and was NOT happy with what I saw so I tore it up and threw it in the garbage. I was very unhappy with my body and felt quite insecure about myself. I knew I HAD to do something. But what? I was VERY intimidated by the gym and the thought of working out in front of other people. Who would know now right? I do that every day now. I eventually joined a Women's Workout World. Even there, with all females, I still felt out of place. WHY? Because I didn't look like some of them and I though I could never look like any of them. I still went but I never saw any real results. I honestly just wanted a quick fix. I remember one time I blacked out taking a class because I was at the point where I was not eating much. YEP, working out without eating enough does NOT work! At that point, I basically gave up, I had been derailed. I was disappointed in myself.

     I remember I would stay up late eating while sitting on the couch watching TV. ...THEN... I got engaged. Well, that changed things for me. I wanted to look nice in my dress. I knew I had to make some changes so I started small, I gave up drinking pop. One night while I was up LATE watching TV and flipping through the channels, I watched an infomercial for TAEBO. Oh, this was something I knew I could do. So of course, I was not worried about the cost, I wanted the results, I was getting married. I was beyond ready to make a change. I absolutely  LOVED the workouts AND I saw results that I had never seen from any other workout I had ever done before. THIS started my addiction to infomercials. I became an infomercial junkie looking for more workout programs. At that time, my sister had started a little program called Power 90. She kept saying how much she liked it sooooo, of course, I bought that one too. I LOVED it AND again, I saw results. From that point on I had been on and off with the workouts and things were going well for me. THEN... I got pregnant again. I was able to keep myself up after the baby. No joke, 6 weeks to the day I was back working out even after having a C section delivery. It wasn't so easy the second time around but I was still ok with how I looked and felt about myself for a while. Then, the weight began creeping back in places I was NOT happy with. Of course I went back to looking for a quick fix. I believe at one point I began taking diuretics to help with the "water weight". Not much relief there. No changes! I still worked out here and there but again, I wasn't seeing much change. THEN...I got pregnant again. Let me tell you, it REALLY gets harder after the third one. Once again, there I was, looking to lose the baby weight. YEP, 6 weeks to the day... I was back at it. Crazy huh? Again, I wasn't seeing much change and was getting discouraged. Then, one night, of course while flipping through the channels.. I see another infomercial for a program called TURBO JAM. Guess what? I bought it, loved it,  made some meal changes, saw some results and kept going. A little on down the line, I hear of a program, with this same trainer, called TURBO FIRE. This I heard of from a facebook post from a friend. You guessed it..I bought it, loved it AND saw more results. I thought, hmm, this Beach Body thing has got something going here. SOOOOO, I decided to become a coach, basically for the simple fact of getting a discount on my infomercial addiction. In the process of this I also became a Certified Personal Trainer and a Group Fitness Instructor. I  would not change any of these choices for the world. They have all changed my life for the better. BUT..I still have more of my secret to tell.

     I STILL have insecurities with my body, I STLL hate seeing myself in pictures. You know how they say you are you own worst critic? YEP, that's me. I STILL battle the night time binge eating. I have eaten whatever was left in the bag of cookies, just so it wouldn't be there to tempt me the next night. I STILL battle the roller coaster of a few extra pounds here and there that make me hate the way I feel in my clothes. I am a work in progress and I am far from perfect. I have dealt with depression, I am human and I STILL get derailed from time to time.
     I cry when other people tell me these same things about themselves. Ya know why? Because I have felt that way too. I'm sure not many people believe that because they see me in a different way. I want you to know, your stories keep me going. It's all of you that make me not want to give up. It's seeing your results AND your setbacks ( we all have them) that lets me know that we are all similar and we CAN do this. I'm not putting this out there to get attention. I'm putting this out there to let others know that if you're feeling this way, you're not the only one. I don't ever want to make anyone feel intimidated by who I am, or who you think I am, or by what I do for a living. I want to inspire people and help people achieve THEIR goals and enjoy THEIR version of a healthy fulfilling life. I want you to NEVER GIVE UP!!